Hey, its Monday and its the first day of school.  Classes were cool, because all of my friends were in them.  Other than a tough Saturday night, things have been pretty good.  I've had enough of it though.  I'm trying to feel better about all of this.  This is a new song I've been listening to by Korn, its called Thoughtless.  The lyrics help get some frusteration out of me.

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
Pushing all the mercy down, down, down
I wanna see you try to take a swing at me
Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me

All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

Thumbing through the pages of my fantasies
I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown
I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me
And I'll pull the trigger
And you're down, down, down

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny?
What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying with your dirty ass in front of me

All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

All my friends are gone, they died (gonna take you down)
They all screamed, and cried (gonna take you down)

I've got my body, got my body back against the wall
I've got my body, got my body back against the wall
Gonna take you down

[repeat 2x]

I've got my body, got my body back against the wall
I've got my body, got my body back against the...

All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming
All of my hate cannot be found
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

Crazy stuff eh?        :)

Well it's 7:15 Saturday morning and I'm posting now because I finally got my music to work.   This song is Duality from Slipknot for those of you that don't know.  It makes me feel better :)

I push my fingers into my eyes...
Its the only thing
That slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all
The things I am today
Jesus it never ends
It works its way inside
And if the pain goes on
I'm not gonna make it!

Yeah, cool stuff. 
Well seeing as how this is a journal I might as well write about my week.  Besides a stupid incident earlier :( it has been decent over all.  Chris and I decided to stop by Brendon's on Wednesday, not knowing that he wasn't home haha.  We ended up waiting for about a half hour pacing outside of his house waiting for him or Jen to get home.  Thursday included an interesting phone call, a missed run and band camp, which was fun despite being full of boring marching practice and field show drills.  Yesterday, Friday, I had some friends over for most of the day.  Dave (he got out of his house?!) showed up first and helped me deck out my new calculator haha.  Diana then showed up followed shortly by the bad experience kid Chris, and Brendon showed up after pizza was ordered.  We laughed most of the time, watching the SNL skits, Diana's 3 meter straw from japan, and Chris' sneezing fits haha.  It was a fun time.

Well I'm going to try to remember to post something on this weekly at least, maybe sooner if I get bored sometime.  Who ever is bothering to read this, see you later.

Testing this stuff out.